adios

[Kuwaki]

i don't speak spanish so that's probably spelled wrong.

i'm gonna be gone for ten days starting this thursday; going on holidays so no posting. i'll try get on daily because i'm sure there is internet connection in the hotel or a local mc donalds that i'll probably end up living in.

[Minteh Freshness]

Awesome. Have loads of fun Blue! ^-^

[Kuwaki]

update, twenty eighth of august.

i'm back in ireland due to some horrible news received the minute we landed in orlando, florida. my grandmother was found on the floor in the hospital without a heartbeat, they managed to bring her back and put her in the ICU in a comatose state. we were advised to get home as soon as possible due to her most likely not making it; to say the least everyone was looking at this weird irish family in walmart who paced up and down at around three in the morning in our own time, exhausted and stressed out after the bag fiasco.

we got to dublin airport and our flight was changed - we were originally going to glasgow then orlando from there but our glasgow flight was delayed so our lovely aerlignus decided to reschedule us with a direct flight. our bags were "definitely" retagged but when we arrived in orlando we had no bags. so that explains why we ended up in walmart at three am to receive horrible news.

you can probably tell im less than pleased with the last four days and would happily declare them the worst days of my life to this point when they should've been the opposite. along with severe general anxiety i was managing the fear of loss, and this unfamiliar country that even though i've been in orlando eleven times in my life and see it as a second home, it wasn't home, it wasn't ireland with my cats and dogs or my family. we all wanted to go home.

with little contact with whatsapp back home in our attempt to get news, we found out in marges that my grandmother was officially in critical condition. but we pushed on, we couldn't get our flight until saturday, might as well make the most of our time away, after all this holiday was a gift from my grandmother and she'd beat us over the head if we didn't have some fun so we pushed on. we went to florida mall, we bought things we wanted and did two weeks of shopping in one day. me and my sister hoarding cute collars for our cats and getting those sweet name tags that you can't get at home for them, toys that squeak when you touch them - you name it, we bought it for the cats. i grabbed a 150 pack of prismacolors and the heavenly bras from sears.

we left sears and my father pulled me and my sister aside and delivered the news, our grandmother; christine lahiff passed away at 9.33gmt surrounded by my family. you can imagine the pit in my stomach, the fear and the sadness; well skip an hour ahead and you'll see me smiling in orlando's premium outlet mall and then later that night in disney springs, making the most of everything.

then for me, this morning on saturday we woke to the phone call of our four bags still missing thanks to the trash company aerlingus. we stopped off at pet co, target and walmart to get our last few bits and luggage we could carry on to bring our stuff home and we got on our flight home at 4pm in orlando. skip multiple anxiety attacks on a seven hour flight when we landed in glasgow; another delightful three hours in scotland until we got on our flight home, 55 minute flight to ireland.

from 31 degrees celsius to 10 degrees; my shorts were not the most comfortable thing to say the least. but it was nice to be on irish soil again, i never thought i'd be happy to see the worst dia duit again as we entered the airport. to be greeted in irish, to see the coldness of the irish people as they ignore you every step of the way home which is so unlike any american store.  the rain, the cool breeze and the smell - the air in this country is so clear and cold in comparison to the humid air in orlando which gave me no help with severe asthma. so home was a comfort, to get into my car, my house and fall asleep at 9am until 9pm to now at 12pm when i am writing this.

the past few days have been incredibly difficult and the days to come will have similar difficulties for me and my family; i just needed to vent this somewhere, i hope y'all can understand. i'm back early so i'm able to post again and all that but i might need a day or two to settle down again after four flights in three days - not really my jam if i'm honest. i wish everyone the best and all my love to everyone on here if i don't talk to you soon.

[Minteh Freshness]

Oh my gosh Blue. I absolutely can't imagine what you are going through and I know no words can ever be enough but I hope you take at least some comfort in this: I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I could hug you right now and make you feel better even if it is by the smallest degree. I'm so sorry you weren't able to be there with your grandmother, and even though I don't really know anything about her, I hope she was happy that you guys were able to enjoy at least a small bit of your vacation. Nothing is better than being with family at this time so I want you to know that you should take your time with everything. Take your time grieving with your family and friends. Take your time reliving those good times you have with your grandmother. Take your time with coping in your own way. We will be here for you if you need us. We will be here for you to vent to and have a good time with whether it be roleplaying or just talking.

I love you Blue and I hope you and your family feel better soon. I'll be here if you ever need to talk (quite literally since I'm almost always on here). <3

[Kuwaki]

thank you mint<3